Showing posts with label therapeutic writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label therapeutic writing. Show all posts

Thursday, February 5, 2015

A Walk in the Cul De Sac


“I only went out for a walk and finally concluded to stay out till sundown, for going out, I found, was really going in.” 


As I went online today to finish my second blog for this year @ The Lightness of Being on the Bike, I was amazed to find the enhanced picture (see sunrise photo, above) on my Google images of a photo I took, when I went out for a very short walk out this morning.

It is only this year, that I am using the special feature, where you can automatically upload pictures taken with your smartphone to your Google+ account.

This has helped blogging @ Happy Feet in the Netherlands so much easier.

It helped revived my love for taking pictures along the biking route, I take daily the whole year around.


In, "Once Upon A Sunny Morning in Ankeveen", I was able to share how my morning was, and retell the story of how I have overcome the challenge of adjusting to the biking lifestyle here in the Netherlands.







This was very fulfilling - telling one's story.

I came back here to tell stories.  Simple stories, I would not like to forget.

Before I wrote the first blog @ The Lightness of Being on the Bike, I saw a post of a friend on FB about the documentary over Joan Didon's - We Tell Ourselves Stories In Order To Live.  It is the same title of her book, which is  a collection of her non-fiction works.

Watching the teaser of the documentary only strengthened my resolve to keep on writing.



I would like to share our stories, the beautiful stories of my family,  and what made me strong, kept me strong and continues to keep me strong to be there not only with my physical presence but with my whole being.

When one has a bipolar disorder, simple things can be difficult but at the same time the simple things are exactly what brings back the most deep felt joy.

I am back here @ My Daily Mooosings in the Netherlands to make sure I won't forget that there are many simple things that brings joy in our life, and hopefully might bring joy in other's life too.

The simple life in the Netherlands…what is a simple life story?

For example, this simple walk in our cul de sac.

Cul de sac - I fell in love with that word, the first time I read it.  I think I was in grade school.  I can't exactly remember now.

2 years ago, when circumstances led us to living in a house in a cul de sac, I thought I would write about this.

But I never took the time to do so.

Today, I can tell you a short story involving our cul de sac.

This morning, it snowed, and when I woke up (after an upsetting night), I knew I would not be able to bike and bring the girls to school because I would not be feel confident and secure enough on the bike.

Each year, I take a fall in Winter from my bike no matter how careful I am.

This year, I am determined not to take a fall.

I asked two parents from the girls school to help me out.  They did not hesitated.  They've offered their help many times before in the past 4 years.



The girls went happily and safely to school in a warm car of a very thoughtful mom!

Instead of going straight to the house, I took pictures before I slowly walked back home.  I love the smell of the morning air.  Even the cold air that hit my face as a greeting, brought a smile to my face.







As I turned towards the path leading to home, the sunrise coming from our cul de sac sweetly beckoned me to take more pictures.  I would have normally said to myself, "Tomorrow…another sunrise..."

But not this time.  It seemed to have said to me with bright celebratory colors, "Good job for finally reaching out to others and asking for help!". I had to acknowledge it!




original non-enhanced picture of sunrise above

“How sweet the morning air is! See how that one little cloud floats like a pink feather from some gigantic flamingo. … It shines on a good many folk, but on none, I dare bet, who are on a stranger errand than you and I. How small we feel with our petty ambitions and strivings in the presence of the great elemental forces of Nature!” 

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

How Many Years to Travel to Neptune?

Neptune
source: Google Images
“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation.”
Graham Greene, Ways Of Escape 
 originally written 20th of August,2013 on Facebook 12:26 am

This is for all those I knew/know from SC ♡ . . . (or for any sentimental, dreamer friend! ). {SC is the anonymous blogging site I discovered in September, 2006. It is where I regained my writing spirit after suffering from writer's block for a long period of time}

September is nearing, and I always start becoming very sentimental, remembering how I discovered blogging - soulful blogging, 7 years ago.

We seldom get the chance to talk now like we did then - not because we don't want to, and not because we are too busy; the medium (Facebook) simply does not have the SC magic. 
It has a different kind of magic we are also grateful for; it still keeps us connected until we all have a grand SC reunion in RL.

I am a dreamer & very sentimental ...and will always be. Even if we don't write each other (with regularity or intensity), or no longer share the same place we can share our thoughts in forms of blogs, you are all in my thoughts, in my heart when I write. 
A group of angels all gathered behind me (as you can count me being behind you!) sending me good thoughts. Thank you for letting me have you in my life.
Thank You
source: Google Images
When I experience something soulful - from watching the sunrise, when I wake up with P (or when we stay up until the sunrises!), to admiring the sunset with my family on the beach after a beautiful Summer day - I think of all of you, and send you thanks.
2011Taken during our morning bike ride to school

Winter 2010/2011
Taken during our morning bike ride to school
Summer 2013
At Wijk aan Zee during one of our Summer Evenings on the beach excursions.

Tonight, after dinner we were all collapsing with laughter during a simple card game by our dining table (it was cleared very quickly because magical small hands helped like happy elves ) - I did not have the camera with me, nor did I even have a fleeting thought to stop and take a picture of what we were doing so I can remember...this only occured to me now while writing these words...
Christmas Season 2011
It was okay. You know? You know. I may not make complete sense but it also okay.

There are many moments in my daily life now, when I catch myself completely soaked in the moment of what I am doing, and no longer feeling afraid, no apprehension, no more rushing thoughts, no over-worrying, no hyper-active plans. Most of all, I am able to let go easier...and easier...and easier. Sublime state.
August 2013
Relaxing after our picnic at 's Graveland Natuurmonument
Not to say, that I am now always in this state! P would be deliriously happy if I was! I would not be delirously happy. I would be quietly happy. hahaha <--- still the hyper me
August 2013
Front of our house.
After another attempt at a careful run...nope toe still giving me a hard time!

It's late but I had to write all these thoughts down. 
Today was like any other day but special. Special because I went through my day completely unburdened by the old me.

How long does one travel to Neptune? I googled that to see if it was 7 years. Since, it took me 7 years to feel at home in my own body. If this was a screenplay, and I am at the part of ending a film, it would be nice to say - VO Morgain Freeman - in conclusion, it will take 7 years to travel to Neptune, the same time she needed to travel home to herself.

But my life is not a film, and it's not yet the end!
Smile after stormy tears
August 2013
After accepting that I will not be able to run Berlin Marathon this year.
Selfie
03.09.13

Selfie
03.09.13

Melancholy is incompatible with bicycling. ~James E. Starrs

When I am not running, I am biking through the seasons.

@The Lightness of Being on the Bike