Source: Daylio App |
Dear Reader,
I am in psychological pain. I woke up from a series of disturbing dreams. The dreams included people from my past while I was still living in the Philippines.
Yesterday, I found an article I have yet to read in full.
I saved it on my blog, where I am recording my step by step process to heal and recover from agoraphobia. The article was the first to pop up, after I typed in :
Source : …overcome Self-Loathing |
Pain indeed can tell you something if you listen to it and stop ignoring it, pushing it away or distracting yourself away from it.
Source I made it bigger for myself to aid me in times of dysregulation |
Source: Dysregulation |
My preliminary diagnosis from the current professional mental health (4th of March) experts I am consulting is : Borderline Personality Disorder. This has been very disturbing and upsetting to me, and this is the first time I am admitting it to myself since I heard it beginning of the week.
Sadness 💙 💭
Source : Stop Self-Abandonment… |
Self-Loathing 🧠 💭
Source: …Dorsal Vagal Shutdown… |
Self-Healing 🧘🏻♀️
✨🥰✨👭🏻 💕
This is why I am here, now.
I would like to let out all my emotions the only healthy and helpful way, I know how:
1. Write as honestly as possible about what’s going through my head.
2. Connect genuinely with my inner child by letting her know - I am here now for her. Show her: I get it. It’s up to me to take care of her needs. I will not abandon her, anymore.
👭🏻
So. That’s how my Sunday morning began. I opened the door 🚪 to my Joanna. I am a mom to my daughters and my eldest will be 25 years old in Autumn. I still have a ton to learn to be the mom they deserve. Learning to be good to Little J will take twice as long. Both endeavors are worth living for.
How’s your Sunday morning?